Thinking Out Loud #3

Here I am, back for my third try at Thinking Out Loud!  I’ve had so many nice comments on my first two posts.  I truly appreciate all of your kind words.  Again, I haven’t really planned anything out so it’s more Fly By The Seat Of Your Pants time.  Let’s see how this works out.  Be sure to check in with the other posters on Amanda’s blog, Running With Spoons.

My mind is all over the place but then, that’s what my life feels like at the moment.  Trying to get back to normal after surgery while still doing physical therapy and my home exercises is quite an adventure.  Our house is not as conducive to moving around as my friend’s house was so that’s an issue.  I’m working with it.  Also dealing with a stubborn husband who won’t believe me that I can go down the steps to do the laundry.  I’ll even concede to him walking down in front of me so I can get there.  He’s still giving me a hard time.  Hopefully my next Thinking Out Loud will be saying that “I’ve done the laundry!!”

~I think that all of the emotions that should have come out during my weeks of recuperation, have been stored up and are rearing their ugly heads now.  I’m feeling very disjointed, disorganized and not myself in a lot of ways.  I need to focus, which is a story anyone who has read BCDC for awhile has heard before.

~I feel a bit out of control with my food as well.  NOT a good thing.  I’m proud of how I’ve been doing with staying under my Weight Watchers goal for over a year.  I probably shouldn’t be too hard on myself.  I was told before the surgery that you need to eat to heal.  I did that and now I find myself wanting to continue to eat that way.  During recovery, I ate and ate and never gained a pound.  Now I have to be more conscious.  I know the best way to do that.

~Those of you who have visited with me before have seen this.  This is my Weight Watchers journal.  If I ever need to bring myself into better focus (not that I EVER seem to be able to get myself completely in focus-not for lack of trying!) I turn to my WW Journal.  This is a tremendous tool in trying to keep myself on track and under control.  I write down all of my foods and (in red) review what I’ve done and give myself pep talks.  At times in my WW adventure, I’ve kept another journal where I tracked my thoughts and discussed my successes and missteps.  I’m thinking I need to do that again.  I’m really feeling a bit out of touch with what I need to do.  I’m still about 12 pounds under my WW goal, but I love the way my clothes feel now and the fact that I have no trouble finding things to fit.  I don’t want to let myself slip on that.  I want to continue to feel this good.

~I have to commit to doing more cooking, not relying on eating out or ordering in.  I can do it, I just need to make myself get back in the routine.  I did do the Best thing in the world for me.  Made a crock pot of my WW veggie soup and a crock pot of beans to go along with it yesterday.  That always gets me back on track.

~As I type this, I seem to me motivating myself into a better mood, a clearer head and a more focused vision of what I need to do.  I’ve always felt that blogging could work that kind of magic for me. Thinking Out Loud is definitely doing it. It’s allowing me to get things off my chest whether it’s about myself or something else.   I like this idea.

Be sure to check out the other Thinkers over at Running With Spoons. Thursday is quickly becoming my favorite day of the week!

Happy Thursday!